Friend on Facebook today said I sure love nature more than anyone he knows. Said he did not have time for nature because life and work got in the way. For some reason that convicted me. I wrote back for him not to lament his state of being, that I could use a little more work and a little less nature. Walden is not always a life of quiet inspiration.
Reality check is I have been out of work since May. The search for a new job has bogged down as what is available out there depresses me. Retail, Dollar General, Lowes, Advance Auto...I lament that I am qualified at 58 years to do very little.
The two things I do enjoy, photography and writing are two things not in high demand. I do spend an inordinate amount of time doing both, spending too much time in nature, taking photographs, to what purpose? To gather a few likes on Facebook? To hang at the gallery to dust away?
So today, thank-you friend for the reality check up. They usually do not go the way intended. I end up not doing what I enjoy and grow restless and irritable, like an addict coming off a high.
I honestly do not know what the future has in store for one such as I, weary of work, weary of nature, weary of being weary to only weary my friends with the weariness.
I see the weariness all about me. I do not want to be seen as a Nature Boy, but obviously that is the cabin I have constructed.
Like I said, even Walden has its moments of quiet desperation.
nothing wrong with being a nature boy!
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