Yet thou not know me?

Have I been so long time with you and yet hast thou not known me?
John xiv.9
A great many believers walk upon the promises at God's call in the way to heaven, even as a child upon weak ice, which they are afraid will crack under them and leave them in the depth.
McCheyne

It was another long walk around the perimeter dike of Alligator Lake Park more in meditation than concentrating upon photography. Again I walked upon the thin ice of not trusting in the promise of God to sustain us, to provide. 
Since 2009 when Melanie suffered the near loss of her life with H1N1 and ARD's, with the loss of our jobs, the Lord has sustained us. Yet, after all the clinging to the very hem of Christ's garment in the storm ceased, again I returned to tip-toeing, fearing a fall into the depths.
My current job with FPL reading meters is due to end at the end of the month. Melanie, who continues to struggle with her health four years hence, is the primary bread winner.
This greatly troubles me and my daily prayer is for a reversal of this situation, allowing her some time for ministry she so loves and caring for loved ones.
They say another freeze is on the way. Perhaps the weak ice under me will freeze a little thicker.