Friday, November 22, 2013

its a paradise


In the parking lot of Lake Shore hospital, in the semi-circle of the ER, with the continual dregs of life rolling in for O care, beauty was there. Between the hey bud, you got a light or cigarette to the juxta-position of those coming in broken and poor, those going out to BMW's and wealth off the poor was quite the contrast.
I waited outside while Melanie got her blood work done.
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Thursday, November 21, 2013

Suwannee above Bell


A few hundred feet upstream from Bell Springs. Several weeks ago underwater.
Lowering levels again allow a walk along the banks, though steep with the home of two huge alligators at the sandbar on the opposite bank in the top of the frame.

A Florida within a Suwannee



One of those compositions noticed upon download. To the right the trees reflecting in the Suwannee form to me an outline of Florida, wrapping around and all the way to Texas. Should title this the Gulf of Suwannee.

Tyranny of the mind


unless we are of those who have already escaped their minds, gone into a gentler time of being young again, like the song Landon loved so as a child, "walking in the air", we are captive to the tyranny of our minds, dwelling in lands we have no business dwelling in, mulling over and over again the missing of loved ones, the thought of old loves gone, living in the past, not thinking of a future, and if we do, only of the bleak thought of what lies ahead, the dreadful thought of the fall, the halting walk, the lonliness of separation, of poverty.
and so we do all we can to try and escape, to keep these gnawing thoughts from nibbling upon the remaining sanity. We dress it up, clean it up, put up and shut up and go about our daily routine
as if the mind wasn't there, staring, demanding the attention.
Then, like a temptress in the night, we dare but peek, and again we are all in. The door, once cracked, bathes the room in light. Vermin thoughts are revealed and flee. In comes the tyranny of the mind.
And we cry gleefully.
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Shadows Journey to free the DeMoniac Angel


It seems such an impossibly long journey now, the bicycle trip from the Cold Storage Plant facing US90 out by the Lake City Municipal Airport way up to Moniac, Georgia and back for nearly a hundred miles.
But, it was nothing for Roger Sessler and I to make the trip, parking his old gray Dodge van, me the  '86 Toyota Pick up beside Still Road and preparing. My preparation usually was done in haste for Roger had usually arrived on time and was impatient to get under way, "burning daylight" being one of his favorite catch phrases. I would hope that I had prepared properly with air in the tires and money enough for Moniac and on the journey we would begin.
The miles would tick by upon his old Huret Trip Odometer mounted on the front wheel, long out of production, fabricating rubber band drive belts from Sunshine hardware and other suppliers.
It was a comfort always knowing if a break down occurred, Roger would be there to supply the patch or the chain tool or the proper advice on how to get out of the jam. Always the teacher, he expected you to learn from the situation and was a stalwart proponent of being Self-sufficient.
I know it was of great amusement or consternation to see me struggling with a tire iron attempting to disengage a stubborn Continental Gatorskin tire from the rim in order to extract the punctured latex tube beneath. He could have completed the task in pit stop style urgent time, but it seems, when it came to life's lessons upon this disciples, burning daylight was suspended in the process.
Some days the journey was made entertaining by the unending monologue he provided of what was going on in every one of his kin folks, neighbors and friends down his daily route. I never in my life had
more knowledge of so many people intimately as when we made these long journeys. Upon seeing some of these people, I was often tempted to punch them out, they having no clue as to why.And knowing that the information he coaxed from me would be passed along, I tried to remain discreet and fair to my family and personal life, for I did not likewise want a complete stranger coming up and knocking my daylights out.
Not even the Internet today, with its Facebook and Twitter and instant updates could be compared.
What we post today is tame by comparison to the juicy details of failures and junk this and that Roger provided.
And we would pull over at a pre-determined place of stopping, familiar to him in the route, of which he would often take on the days I was not riding, and we would pull from our pockets a  mid way snack, at least he would. I was often not as far sighted or prepared to carry such.
He would obligingly share a fig newton with me. If I could just make it up to Taylor in Baker County and the first official rest stop on our way up to Moniac, I promised I would repay the favor. He seldom let me pay.
The trip up to Moniac is through the Osceola National Forest, a monoculture planted forest of pine trees and scattered cypress stands and a few hardwoods, but mostly pines and more pines.
The main threat on the road came from the frequent log trucks, some friendly, some not so. Roger had a technique of playing the wounded, insane biker that unnerved me, riding zig zag and unpredictable when log trucks approached to our rear. He said this wounded bird type maneuver would cause them to give us wide birth. I was never convinced and felt they would  be all the more frustrated and mow us over on their determined way  not to be slowed to their Georgia coastal pulpwood plant destination.
Before arrival into Taylor, the scenery would improve with hardwood shade from the past remnants of urban sprawl when the boom days of turpentine spread Taylor past the narrow confines of a few old buildings and churches today. At the cross roads was the object of our desires, the little wooden general store with the hunting and fishing kill and catch wall, a place locals gather to share tall tales, lies and full four-wheel drives with overly priced gas. For Roger, it was the place to purchase the one liter bottle of Pepsi and the Sunshine brand cookies or  Generic Fig Newtons. I usually opted for Gatorade and a Pay Day or Snickers bar. Roger, knowing the clerk, as he knew all the clerks in a hundred or more mile radius of Lake City, would chat and catch up on how were the kids, the boyfriend, the gout. It always amazed me his ability to know so many people and follow their every detail in life. He had a huge route.
If I was ready or not, when his burning daylight timer beckoned, he was back on the bike and making his way out of Taylor. I would again hastily down the Gatorade and follow, for often, I was unfamiliar with the route and had to keep him in sight or forever wander in the pine barrens, a specter of a bicyclist, haunted in my lost state near the border line.
Turn here, turn there, I could never remember, but I hypnotically followed the back wheel of the Vitus, the cracked head tube, the outdated everything, from the leather strap caged pedals, the down tube shifters, the handmade by the ladies at the N&W dry cleaners jerseys, with the sewn in mesh and pockets from old road race tee shirts, the side mirror I envied.
When at the end of misery and having ran the course of his many narratives, riding along in our silent thoughts, talking back to my inner demons, we would make the cross road of selling your soul  to the devil and enter Georgia, with Moniac in the shade of the trees upon the bank of the other side of the St Mary's River.
He spoke lovingly of the beautiful clerk that kept me close in his draft, knowing something good would come from my efforts, some reward at the end beside the narrow view of see through Lycra tights long beyond the point of retiring.
We made as graceful an entry into the back side of nowhere as we could, trying my best not to stick out as a city-fied yuppie in my Lycra and high heel clip in shoes among the red-necked patrons adorned in the apparel of log men, swampers and other such characters straight out of Deliverance.
Eyes askance, they saw us for what we were and in their hard-shelled Independent Pentecostal raising reserved judgment and gave us a mannerly nod or wave, curled smirks betraying their true thoughts.
Out by the Ford Four-very-high-wheel drive truck a straw headed snaggle toothed blond with no meat upon her bones was gassing up, calling out, "There's my man!" Shiver's upon my then thin spine went up and certainly I was in
the final stages of heat stroke to think this was the beauty I was told of falling headlong into.
We made our way inside the dark environs of the continuation of deer,hog,bear,bass and catfish photographs impaled upon the walls, the taxidermy gone wrong to the coolers frosted over.
Pulling the Pepsi and Gatorade, not the taste of choice in this land of Bud and Blue Ribbon, we took our grub to the counter, where surely the brown headed bombshell would emerge from some misty stage and take my money and put it in her g-string and smilingly beckon  me to "come hither" in Monica fashion.
But after seeing mirages all the day, it wasn't any different here. From the glare of the day, my eyes finally adjusted to the darkness, to see before me, the face eroded with the crow marks from a Hitchcock horror tale, the skeleton-like finger reaching for my money. "He's a cutie!" she drawled in her deep, filter less Winston voice to an amused local waiting behind me.
It was then I heard Roger awaken me from my day mare. "Where's Gloria?"
"Oh, hell, she done gone and got herself messed up with some drunk down in Sanderson..."
And then I knew, I had arrived too late.
Gloria had fallen for another.
I slipped her my last ten and almost said, "keep the change", but I was in no mood for
what could have beens and stashed the coins in my back jersey pockets, the sound reminding me the entire way home to Cold Storage of lost loves, of lost friends, of long journeys I so miss today, of wondering, where is Gloria today, and what came of the snaggle toothed maiden?
So many that we no longer journey long miles to see. They go on with the story of their lives and I no longer am privy to the details. I just have to hope for them it turned out well in the end.
I hope Gloria left that drunk in Sanderson.
I think today I shall forgo the Gatorade and pop a Pepsi
for my friend.
I miss my friend.
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Suwannee Slumbers


What was a late summer of fast flowing current, rising from the Okeefenokee to overflow the banks further downstream, impeding my ability to walk upstream beyond Robinson Branch falls, has in the November fall fallen to a slow ebb. Rocks and roots once submerged reveal their familiar forms, the plants dormant in the dark tannic resprout and begin to grow. Items caught in the rocks rest and begin the process of rust and decay. The few tupelo fruits that were not washed away lie scattered about.
The old eight foot alligator on the Hamilton shore has returned to his swirling cove, lying upon the emerging sandy bank, each day giving him more room to lay in the autumn sun. I catch his grey form as he slowly slips underwater without a sound. I remain watchful in case he decides to observe me at a closer surprise. It is only after five but with the time fall back, already the sun is low in the pines and slanting sharply through the cypress. It is a golden warm light that draws artists and photographers to its beautiful hue. I know that it is a fleeting light and I do not work slowly, but scurry about, looking quickly for good compostion and angle. A Judas, what I do, I must do quickly. The battery in the Nikon I find to my chagrin has not been charged, the extra battery from Amazon has been on back order for months, and so I put it away in favor of the Canon S95. It too has a notoriously short lasting battery and I trust it too will not fail. I do have an extra battery, but it often in the sitting goes dead. My third option is the iphone camera of last resort. Often I do not get that far into a shooting to have to resort to it, but it has happened, even with the extra Canon S100 along.
My process of shooting is so against the rules of taking quality photographs. I leave the tripod, I leave the camera bag, the extra filters and do dads that help achieve quality. But I grow lazy and prefer to walk about lightly, not burdened with dead weight, like the dead Nikon hanging around my neck, an albatross.
Thom Hogan today in his blog again touted the lightweight micro 4/3 system from Olympus, with a full range of quality, lightweight lenses. If I were employed and able to secure funds, no doubt I would already have switched to this lighter option.
One final point. When I was driving to Bell Springs on Lassie Black road, in the field of Mr Christie were about two dozen turkeys, close enough for telephoto, which I had out and ready. But I drove on, saying, they will be there when I return. They weren't, and a potentially better shot than I got on the Suwannee was lost. Usually I always follow the rule to stop when the opportunity is there, that it seldom offers itself again.
Break rules and pay.
Carry gear
Get in shape
Stop.
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Wednesday, November 20, 2013

A blink away


Last evening was cool and windy. The clouds were moving swiftly Southward. The clouds would part for a time and the moon would turn a brilliant white. I was watching for the jets coming out of the North when suddenly a jet streaked past heading South. I quickly shot two frames, the second only catching chem trail. I was likewise not in the best of focus for with the manual 180mm lens, if you do not constantly correct focus, it will creep off sharpness. One would think at infinity it would remain sharp, but not so.  In addition, the shutter speed in my laziness was set at 125, the edge of capturing a moving object without blur. All in all, considering the hours I sit and watch the skies for the just right intersection of plane, bird, UFO or satellite with the moon, not too bad. I was especially pleased with the red light captured on the body of the jet.
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A City Remembered


Today and eighty-five dollars later for Kodak paper...got a buy one get one free deal at Office Max, printer ink and spray adhesive...$19 a bottle!, I began printing 8x10's for the display case at the library this Thursday. I only had to select from about 600...
I narrowed it down to approximately forty and tomorrow I will have to cut and spray mount to foam core the black and whites since I do not have that many frames on hand. I did this method last time I displayed at the library and it works just as well.
The difficult task is what to print and what not to print. Of all the 600, something spoke to me to select them.
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Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Bend Lowly


Lately it has been such a realization of the perils of being upon ego trips, taking journeys taking only me, seeking the vain glory. The quest to get the attention and draw all things toward me. The more I try and gather all, the more it flees and sifts away, turning to empty air in my hands. Like chasing the butterflies and the bees, not waiting for them to settle patiently, running after them, causing a stir. It is such a difficult lesson. The bending lowly, sitting quietly in obscurity.
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