Friday, November 22, 2024

Squint



 When I glowed

John Clare Stokes 


There was the long ago time

When in that bright Wakulla sunshine

I could see more squinting

That most could wide-eyed staring.


Mom she wanted to have me tested

Even took me to see Doctor Head

“You'll die if you pick your nose”

Is all he said.


Santa came one Christmas wearing

Mr Shuster's shoes

The Tully twins and the Pelt boys

They all clamored to his lap

I just wondered what did Santa

do with Shuster? 


Helen Roussey I was determined to marry

I felt I knew enough as a 2nd grader

To make a go with this girl from Panacea

Since my teacher snubbed me.


Some of us n’er go beyond our raisin’

and boogers haven’t killed me yet

If I ever find Miss Thompson my teacher

With me on my towel I’ll ask her to take a nap.


Such was the glow from Sopchoppy

Thursday, November 21, 2024

White lies


 White lies

john clare 


Frail flower

How I promised

Protection from

The frost

Taking grandma's

Most cherished

Wedding ring quilt

To cover you

But it crushed you

Before the frost 

Ever wilted you

I told not the truth

to the coming sun

Blaming the frost

Instead knowing 

How he loves to

Burn him away

Never chiding

Granny on her

wedding day.

Gallery


 We are the Gallery

We draw no salary

We sell our souls

We hawk our hearts

It smarts

To trade in blood

To hang our skin

Like sins upon a

penance screen

Seen for all

Shunned piously 

Best left to hang

Nail hole

Wire taut

Hammer head

Askew 

You call this art?

Wilt


 Wilt

john clare 


In the aftermath

of the freeze 

from the front

word was reached

the frost had breeched

with a valiant stand

the brave glories 

post was reached

to wilt in the

savage onslaught 

they hung there

upon the vine

not a soul to 

lower them.

Sad times.

Wake


 Wake

john clare 


In the hushed

Homeland

Where the glories

Made their final

Stand

A wake was held

I took the evening

Shift 

The last time I saw 

Them in their

Uniforms fine

Saluting the sun

Going bravely into

The cold night.

Frosty worn


 Come the frosty morns

To adorn the garments 

Worn

By those gone on

Magic exists in those

Old silk threads

They live again

Upon me

Inexplicably I dance

Upon the crunchy 

White lawn

With those gone on.

O say

You say am I mad

Mad?

My frown is

But a door

To hide my joy

Behind.

MrsFlorida

 Mrs Florida 


My earliest and richest memories to this day reside in Sopchoppy, my first eight years in Florida. We spent many Sundays at Mrs Florida Morrison Roberts(1883-1976) home with her son Bonny Kaslo”BK”, (1907-1999)Florida Supreme Court Justice and his sister Inez Yent(1902-1993)wife of Florida Attorney General. I was most fortunate to have many matronly mothers in my early life. Mrs Florida’s , husband,Thomas(1877-1949) was the railroad clerk and merchant. They married in 1899. I would get out her button up shoes and try them on her, pretending I was a salesman. She had a feather down mattress on which I slept. Mamma and Paula and I would go to her house and stay during hurricanes, though her wooden cracker house was less sturdy than our concrete block house. She kept up writing to us up until her death.


Gather the shadow


 since it has been going on thirteen Novembers 

his shadow remembers and lingers

in the long Still Road S curve

just down from where we slowed

to recall Judy and her crooked tree

lingering we knew

awaiting our journey by

lately it seems more are the shadows

awaiting our passing

patient along the still roads 

stepping out beside the

long Taylor way to wave

as mirages upon the hot 

asphalt

over the Interstate hill

beckoning us to please wait

under the lone persimmon

letting them catch up

only to spin beyond our sight

determined to make Moniac

for some invisible reward

of being the first to greet 

us as the shadows gather in

front of the single store on 

the way to nowhere

and prepare

for the tracing of the route

back to the long Still Road 

S curve

to greet Judy and gather

the shadow waiting 

patiently...

With wind gone


 With wind gone

Johnclarestokes 


Calm gentle

Relentless wind

Weathering fading smoothing

The long leaf heart pine

We patch

We paint 

We mend

But still blows the

Calm gentle

Relentless wind

The second

The minute

The year

The wind cares not

For the time

Rise to face it 

Make a stand for 

Eighty and nine until

The nuptial knotted threshold

Wears thin to lie at last

In piles of tinder

And it comes

Calm gentle

Relentless wind

To ignite and scatter

The august memory.

The Canoeist




 The Canoeist

After John Cheever’s short story, The Swimmer

By john stokes 


Like revelations that come to sages on exiled islands, it dawned upon him what he must do. He would canoe across the county. That cold November morning that had killed his beloved glories, he pulled the Old Town from the racks. The royalex no longer made, it fell  with a rocking to the dirt. It was the sixteen foot Chipewan model,originally bright yellow, now a dull green from multiple spray painted coatings, with a mostly yellow bottom showing through the scrape marks. He had secured the canoe from an abandoned garage, rescuing it from a long forgotten dry docking, giving it new seats and yoke. Heaving it overhead, with the Bending Branches bent wooden paddle lashed to the thwart, purchased by him from funds his few loyal employees raised for him on his sudden Friday April firing, ending nineteen years denying the Golden Rule,he portaged over to Paul's pool, leaf free unlike his, chlorine mists stinging his vision. Like many of his neighbors, he only knew him by first name. He knew he drank beer and talked loudly on his cell phone was about the extent of his knowledge. And he wasn't home. He was glad to exit this unimaginative rectangular pond and portaged his route downhill to Lenvil Dicks pond which spilled over into the Price Creek. He thought of the times he and his estranged son,now in Japan, fished along the banks, and he hurried to exit this area of the stabbing shallows to the cool creek. Once in the shade of this twisted way, he got as far as old Country Club road before having to hurry across, dodging the rapid moving, like a possum on the highway.With  thanks given to Buck Hill for digging his series of dikes in the sixties, he at last made his way into the big  lake called Alligator, named for the old Seminole chief who once made his home where now the upper crust dwelt along the high side roam.

He paddled with his favorite j-stroke in long pull and twist the wrist turns, able to keep to the left gunnel, tracking a straight line. At the end of Alligator by the Tiger stadium, a creek trickled out which eventually formed Clay Hole Creek, some water yet remaining from the summer falls which flooded some residents,blaming the County.  They said in the ancient of days this was once a continual river all the way down to the Itchetucknee. No longer. Forgoing  the blame, it was a continual disembark and pull affair. This was one reason he preferred the canoe over the kayak. The getting in and out. With a long series of repeats, he entered Rose Creek, which he transversed west, taking the right fork at 133 to the headwaters. He was near High Falls, though he never found a fall, surmising there was once a fall long ago or perhaps it was a hippy hangout. His longest portage faced him as he crossed hayfield and bogs below Lulu to Olustee Creek, which designated the lower border of his county. A deeper tannic color, his only obstacles were the many fallen trees replete with hornet nests and banana spiders. It was an arduous paddle, which tested his resolve, but he was too far southward to turn back. And if to add insult to his misery, when he finally made it to O'Leno Park, the stream abruptly went underground in a whirlpool. Another long portage through swamps of moccasin and ticks loomed. When the river appeared again at River Rise, he was now on the clear Santa Fe, a wide, navigable dream of a river. It made the long series of hardships worth the journey. From then on, it was a joy to float along, tracing the southernmost contours and bends, padding past July Spring, Hollingsworth bluff, Wilson Springs and finally to the point where the Itchetucknee's clear water  met the Santa Fe tea. Though nearing sixty, a washed up shell of his former vigor, he knew his journey across county was complete. But even in his weakened, near delirious state, he was loathe to call it quits. He was tired of calling it quit, of having others call it quit for him on Friday's! No, this day he would call the quits, he would find a worth far beyond the arbitrary worthlessness placed upon him. 

So on that cold and uneventful Friday in November, with the memory of his wilted morning glories still stinging, the Canoeist continued on for the Suwannee. He would make the Gulf eventually, his once Popeye like left forearm turning the J-stroke into the current.