Tuesday, August 20, 2024

The Swimmer


 Needmore

A short story after the John Cheever story The Swimmer

johnClare stokes


We cannot fathom the reasons men do the things we do. Why we climb oxygen-starved peaks, dive into Floridian light starved caves with our oxygen upon our backs. There is ever the thought, I need more out of life. In the case of James Cash Strickland, he simply found himself on Highway 94 beside the Tom's Creek Bridge, less than a mile out of Needmore in Echols County, Georgia. 

It was on that day, approximately ten on the May morning, James Cash decided, "I shall swim to the Gulf of Mexico." James was not a particularly adept swimmer, he had a pool which he cleaned daily, but rarely entered. It was one of those painful lingering memories of children now grown and gone.

He had planned a two day kayak trip down the Tom's, entering the Suwannee River just across the Georgia border in Columbia County, journeying on to his take out point at the Highway 6 bridge. As he stood with his kayak and gear, his friend Steve from White Springs having already left with his car, leaving it at the six bridge on the Hamilton County side, he pondered. He thought of this river, the years he had spent upon it, how it was the dividing of two nations, the Timucua to the east, the Apalachee to the west. Guasaca Esqui they called it, River of Reeds. Years later in 1528 Narvaez would see it, in 1539 DeSoto would cross this River of the Deer, or San Juanee, Little St John's, in search of gold.

We do not know what led James Cash of leave the kayak beneath a tupelo tree off Highway 94 as he entered the water that morning. All he knew was a certain freedom felt, the need for more out of life taking on new meaning. 

He mostly did a freestyle dog paddling kick as he was accustomed to in his pool down the narrow Tom. He eventually found his rhythm as he passed the Woodpecker route, the only bridge he would see until Road 6 and the car awaiting. The upper Suwannee was a grand swim, the water in the mythic river this time of year low enough from lack of rain that the current was not too swift, making the narrow channel a joy to swim.

The sound of the bees busy above in the tupelo trees was intoxicating and it only gave him strength to continue on. The fisherman at the Six bridge were totally fascinated to see a boat-less person making his way down stream. Like most folk in these parts though, they did not meddle into his mission and did not question when he walked over to his vehicle and left the note on the windshield and the keys on the driver side tire. "Swimming to the Gulf. Need More." James Cash.

He slipped quietly into the tannic below the fishers who never saw him, assuming him to be somewhere in the woods camping.

The river between bridge six and the old Cone bridge, named for the former Governor from Benton was lined with tupelo and cypress, a very familiar part of his journey. He recognized many of the bends and banks he had once paddled to, the old Prospect Primitive landing, Turner Bridge, Roline and the Limp Dick bend where he and his two boys used to camp up on the high sand bar.

He wondered as he continued on, if his friend Johnny wasn't somewhere near, writing about the river he too loved, still happy to be among the number one more day. He thought of following the trail through the palmetto and inviting him to come, but he had an unction, a need more to continue on without haste if you will.

Big Shoals was a thrill to shoot through. With low water, it was a raging Class 3 rapid. He knew how to safely make his way through the sharp limestone rocks hidden by doing a crab walk over them, hold high his tail bone. He had learned this years ago in a canoe class taken at the "communistic" junior college over in Gainesville.

Past the Shoals, he heard the Robinson branch falls back up in the woods a bit but he was more concerned with the large alligator he knew long dwelt on the Hamilton County side above Bell Springs. He kept to the Columbia or Timucua side as he quietly floated by the sleeping gator on the bank. Fortunately he never saw the swimmer.

The river was growing wider below the Shoals with steep, high banks and pine forests spilling right up to the waterline. He could hear the sound of traffic ahead as he went through little shoals to pass under the CSX and 41 bridge out from White Springs. He recalled the largest moccasin he had ever encountered as he once stepped over a log on the bank. He swam on to the sounds of the clarion tower bells of the Stephen Foster Memorial Park playing Foster songs, forever bringing more fame to the little St Johns, by naming it Swanee to fit his Old Folks at home song. He did some backstrokes under the 136 bridge, looking up at the Sophie Adams home by the bridge, then the Springhouse, once a thriving mecca for tourists. He was loathe to leave such familiar stretches of river, sections made immortal by the many poets and artists, including Theron Gaulding, the painter who thought so much of the river he had his ashes spread upon them. 

As the bells of Foster faded, the river took him westward where it made the big bend before dipping downward toward Ellaville at the Suwannee River State Park. Ellaville, once a large sawmill owned by another Governor, George Drew, was named for Ella, an old negro woman in the Governor's employ. 

He passed under the US90 bridge, then the noisy Interstate 10 dual bridges. He thought of the many travelers speeding past above, rushing East and West. He did not give it much thought, He only knew his need for more and he was heading South. By Dowling Park and the 'old folks at home' home, he was beginning to take on less the appearance of ;man and more fish, Sturgeon to be more accurate. He was no longer led by the nagging cravings that once so ruled him; need to eat, need to sleep, need to possess, need to chase. No, like the Sturgeon who would annually migrate up the river to spawn, James Cash was in a reverse spawn. Sixty years of living had come to this. It was all he had to show for. It drew him on, the journey from Needmore to need more.

The mid part of the river from Little River Springs on down to Fannin' Springs was a spring hopping nirvana: Turtle, Fletcher, Rock Bluff, Sun, Hart, Otter and a myriad of lesser known clear, cool paradises flowing into the wine-colored waters. James loved the rush of cool each spring gave and infused new energy into him.

By now the river was wide and the boats many. He was like the manatee, in danger of a prop cutting his white flesh to shreds. 

The water past the Dixie County bridge at Fannin' was growing brackish. By Fowler's Bluff, the site of the pirate Black Beards sailing to bury treasure, the river was tidal with the Sturgeon and mullet jumping. He was no longer interested in any treasure from Black Beard or gold from DeSoto. Passing Hog Island, the many channels were confusing and one not familiar could easily become lost. Fortunately, he knew the way to the Gulf. He passed the charter boats coming in, heading toward Suwannee and other ports of showing their catches. He did not need to follow the buoys or channel markers out.

It had been a long, two-hundred fifteen mile serpentine swim.

His skin was white and leathery as a Sturgeon. He was at the end of the journey.

Never again in this life would he ever see Needmore.

Monday, August 19, 2024

Almost heaven


 Below East River


In the long ago journey to Bluefield

We would know our journey was ending

As we neared the East River Mountain tunnel

Going beneath the hills of Virginia

Opening into the mountains of West Virginia 

Where we'd stop at the Blue Ridge station

To ride the little Red Ridge Runner train

Peering over the cliff to see grandmothers 

Home on Cumberland road below

Impatiently taking the last switchbacks down

Into the town of Bluefield

To point out the familiar landmarks

St Luke's where two were born

The telephone station where another worked

Castlebury where another lived

Pulling up into the steep drive

Across from the dairy and the twins

Parking behind Monnies Black Buick

Beside Uncle Kermit's just introduced 

Mustang

For he was a Ford salesman

And we'd look up upon hearing the

Ridge Runner high above us

It's whistle telling us

Another family had made it under

The East River Mountain

And too would soon be home

Looking up from their side of

Almost heaven.

New life in Angie

 My brother recently got a divorce and has not looked back. It is what it is but it is a lesson to me to not let your first love slip away. Could his first marriage been saved? Possibly. Could Angie’s? Possibly.

Moot point. If you aren’t meant it gets tough when you go on and on in it. He should have gotten out before the kids.

Hindsight is always clear.



The Silent Doll


The Silent Doll

John Clare Stokes


For years you laid by my side,

Never lonely in the cold night.

Silently you listened when I cried,

Close you snuggled in my frights.


Days grew long, and so did I,

Beside the bed you were placed.

Now as a big girl, to no longer cry,

All such a rush at such a pace.


Now in school, far from home,

No friend have I  by my side.

Often at night, when all alone,

Do you hear the tears I cry?


Down the aisle as a bride, 

Tears of joy welled within.

Yet, something missing inside, 

Mother, my doll would you send?


Now a golden grey, I await the end,

My children seldom find time for me.

Alone and afraid, how I miss my friend,

Oh, just once more, in her silence to be.


And from the attic within the dark,

A dolls muffled cry is heard.

Then silence, as her soul departs,

the doll now snuggled, without a word.

Sunday, August 18, 2024

As trees walking


 As Trees Walking

JohnClareStokes


If it was left to the artists

When the blind man

Came to Jesus

And with the first touch

He saw men 

As trees walking

The artist would have said

That's good enough

Go and create 

With this vision that

Can see

Men as trees

And not as they are

Clearly.

Sister Vashti

Sister Clelan Vashti cried daily, invoking the gods to appear. It must of annoyed them greatly for they sent me. We talked of quilting and stretching the frame overhead, handed down from grandma. We talked of brother Gene and Richard, men we both knew from the seventies, of the town of Day where once they dwelt. And the gods that day heard Sister Fowler.


Lamp posting

GK said nothing is poetical if plain daylight is not poetical. The lamp post on Alton Road was my turning point. Inside Ivan was upon his perpetual bed with MS, holding the dog as I entered the smoke den. How do you like living beside the tracks? We don't notice it. In the cool breeze of the floor fan I knelt and began. Poetry comes in all homes eventually, if but once yearly.


 

Owls about


 Mallet said the wailing owl screams solitary to the mournful moon. The Snowy Owl was the first owl that he gave her. Years later, lungs near spent, every nook of the single wide held her owls. And down in Haffye Hays park the nearest attraction was the Cooley's bronze statue of RC Robinson. No one came from afar to see the owls on DuPont, but in the trees of Greenville the wailing was felt.

Saturday, August 17, 2024

Races i remember

 There are races I remember

John Clare Stokes 


Over the years I have occasionally visited the place of one of my most memorable races. Last year this time on our way back from Mississippi we detoured off I-10 monotony to the wonderfully landscaped West Washington US90 to Monticello and then down Waters Street between the Methodist Church my father pastored and the Jefferson County Elementary where I was a new third grader from Sopchoppy. We turned off Waters to the no trespassing road behind what was once the PE building. I went back to the day the coach announced today we are going to determine the fastest third grader. We all knew it was going to be Jimmy Haines, the champion from first and second grade.

We all lined up along the P.E.building and the instructions were to the guardrail, touch it  and back up the hill. At the blast of the whistle, we all, boys and girls, set out in a tangle downhill. As expected, Jimmy reached the turn around first, but not far behind, the new boy from Sopchoppy.

About half way up the hill, the new kid surged ahead and handily won the honor of fastest runner in third grade. It was a door opener for the shy boy as now he was suddenly wanted on the team, in the group, at the lunchroom table.

The boy from Sopchoppy won few races over his running career, but he was certainly stoked to have won this one.



1976


 Spirit of Seventy six


If there was a year

I’d ask to live again

Give me seventy six

It came near the nadir

of a life 

Twenty one

Junior year at Asbury

how I would not get that 

F in Spanish 

how I would play on Winstons 

Viking basketball team

How I’d run cross country 

through the Jessamine hills

how I’d board in Johnson dormitory 

maybe even Fletcher Hall with Freddie

how I’d graduate 

with my fifth and sixth grade friends

If only I could have

Seventy six again

Friday, August 16, 2024

Secret Lovers


 Secret lovers

John Clare Stokes


When an old love dies

we don’t send flowers 

we don’t attend visitation

we mourn in silence

among the hidden letters

after the grass has grown

the marble marker placed

we visit the lover

glance about lest some say

why lingered he there today.


This is the type post that gets no interest. Melissa was the only one to like it when i placed in Poetry of Image.

I may post it to my main page just 

to see.

Laurices Station


 Laurice and Luther Ray


When we lived in Sopchoppy in the 50’s and 60’s, Laurice and Floride Roberts Standard Oil Station on the outskirts of town on HWY 319, was one of two places to get gas or have your vehicle or tractor worked on by Johnny B, the black mechanic. The snapshot inserted is of my father, Luther Ray, who passed away in 2011, and Laurice with his dog. Laurice died in 1997 and Floride in 2008.


Someone commented on Old Florida, that the people of Sopchoppy were unfriendly. If so, it’s only because all the people I knew as a boy are buried out in West Florida Cemetery, and all the unfriendly have moved in from Tallahassee.

I think there were few towns like Sopchoppy in the 50’s and 60’s that epitomized Mayberry more.