Up early and out in the foggy, raining morning to Watertown Lake. It was raining too hard to get out so I returned home. Meant to get umbrella but left again, forgetting it. Back at lake, about four miles away, the rain was slacking. Took a few shots of Martins darting over the surface in the fog. From there went into town and by lake Isabella where I took these three ducks, following along with them as they walked into the water. Came back home. Cleaned house. Watched Kentucky basketball. Going to Winn Dixie after the game.
Wrote the poem about the girls of Forest, Mississippi in my youthful teen days when I would spend summers there with my uncle letting me use his GTO. I had to be at least 16 in order to do that. Made friends with one of those old friends and was able, via my cousin Joe Bradford, to see pictures currently of another. I had to say they aged much better than I have.
It was true in the poem that I wound up in New Orleans, missing an exchange in Meridian. But it was going out, not coming back. Poetic license. It was a take off on three songs, Cat Stevens, Morning has broken, Wild World and Lou Reed, Take a walk on the wild side, one of the girls favorite high school songs.
Between my Aunt Irene trying to match me up and my Uncle, who was the principal at a junior high school, knowing all the girls, I was in a young fellow heaven.
The Miss Congeniality was before my time, but then again, a metaphor, artistic license.
Saturday, February 1, 2014
Friday, January 31, 2014
Journey into obscurity
So what if you do not understand my meaning, my journey into the obscurity? Dust off your living word that spells it in the modern vernacular idiom of the day. That is much,much easier than wondering what King James meant by the obscure, antiquated idiom of the past. Some are prone to tune into a shall we say, the secret chord that was played before the Lord, not the clanging symbol easily heard.
Say what you mean, mean what you say. Speak clearly, your actions are confusing me.
No thanks but thanks. I am one that shuns the white-wall austerity. It is in my bend to filter my words through the stained-glass, bending such blinding light, diffusing it, sending it scattering. Why would you lay beneath a blazing sun and burn? Even you apply the screen.
This life is as through a veil, a depression blue glass at best. Yet you want the unfiltered light. You want
the clear meaning of everything. Nothing a mystery. Nothing of magic. Nothing of poetry. Boring.
I have no words for you. Besides. You would not understand me clearly. Can I say it more plainly? Yes. But I choose not to.
Moving on....
Today in my banality I am relishing being able to print again, even though it cost 83.00 for the Epsom printer.It so far does an adequate job. I have printed, matted and put sleeves on about seven today.
I await the business cards to attach to the back of each, then I will take them to the gallery for everyone to flip through at rapid pace. I was blown away yesterday watching Herb, the retired lawyer photographer, going through the prints quickly, quickly, looking at only a few, then setting them down, never commenting. I am not sure I could take sitting under a tent at some show and watching this go on all day long. It was as if he was going through legal documents. As Steve Coleman, the Australian photographer said, we want our photographs, our work, to cause one to pause, to connect, to speak. Clearly, mine did not speak.
Or...
Could it be that Herb represents the many, many who simply do not operate upon the secret chord level, but upon the stark, non-obscure surface? I would probably say so. His work does not speak to me. I do not care if he uses film and develops his own. He can afford to. Many are the artists in the gallery, doing it out of hobby or a way to spend retirement or husband's money. A few, I do not claim I am one, hear the secret chord. I would want to be in that company.
In OBSCURITY.
Say what you mean, mean what you say. Speak clearly, your actions are confusing me.
No thanks but thanks. I am one that shuns the white-wall austerity. It is in my bend to filter my words through the stained-glass, bending such blinding light, diffusing it, sending it scattering. Why would you lay beneath a blazing sun and burn? Even you apply the screen.
This life is as through a veil, a depression blue glass at best. Yet you want the unfiltered light. You want
the clear meaning of everything. Nothing a mystery. Nothing of magic. Nothing of poetry. Boring.
I have no words for you. Besides. You would not understand me clearly. Can I say it more plainly? Yes. But I choose not to.
Moving on....
Today in my banality I am relishing being able to print again, even though it cost 83.00 for the Epsom printer.It so far does an adequate job. I have printed, matted and put sleeves on about seven today.
I await the business cards to attach to the back of each, then I will take them to the gallery for everyone to flip through at rapid pace. I was blown away yesterday watching Herb, the retired lawyer photographer, going through the prints quickly, quickly, looking at only a few, then setting them down, never commenting. I am not sure I could take sitting under a tent at some show and watching this go on all day long. It was as if he was going through legal documents. As Steve Coleman, the Australian photographer said, we want our photographs, our work, to cause one to pause, to connect, to speak. Clearly, mine did not speak.
Or...
Could it be that Herb represents the many, many who simply do not operate upon the secret chord level, but upon the stark, non-obscure surface? I would probably say so. His work does not speak to me. I do not care if he uses film and develops his own. He can afford to. Many are the artists in the gallery, doing it out of hobby or a way to spend retirement or husband's money. A few, I do not claim I am one, hear the secret chord. I would want to be in that company.
In OBSCURITY.
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Printer Peace
The day of my 21, 535 and nine months upon earth began with a cup of coffee and cereal and a ten o'clock journey to the Gateway Gallery to work Ginny's shift of 10-2. The previous night I had worked on and off most of the day gathering my 8x10's, 25 of them into mattes and clear sleeves, the rest loose, to take to the gallery for a one day sale of 20.00 each. I placed it on Facebook and it seemed promising as soon Rick Bringger, my best friend arrived and he soon thereafter purchased two.
We sat about some and Ken, who was a woodworker at 84, but not looking it, a retired industrial arts teacher, who was in the gallery to volunteer as well, got out his hand-crafted dulcimer with the birds carved and all. He was rusty but played two hymns, I got out the harmonica, but my key was wrong and it just sounded bad. Rick beat upon a glass jar. Good jam session.
Well, that wound up being the only sale of the day. In all, I sold four. Two more to Kim, who is our Art League Events person. I could not print hers until an afternoon of trying again to make the Kodak 3250 work, cleaning the heads again. Melanie said she needed something printed and so I went online and ordered from Wal-Mart for 59.00 an Epson 301. I got to Walmart to pick it up and they had none. The website let me order. I was aggravated. I went to Office Max and they did not have the 301 but the next step up for 79.00. Finally got it set up about dark something and printed out the two for Kim and some others to experiment with the printer.
I still want to get a pro quality printer for around 400.00 but again, on a budget and have to skimp.
Birthday wishes on Facebook were steady. I tried to respond to everyone.
Posted several photographs and still I am getting no responses or shares like the one Suzanne posted on my sight and all the comments. I like comments more than likes, for perhaps sometime in life someone will say something useful beside beautiful or wow or nice.
It was also interesting to see a few folks looking at the photographs I had in the gallery, flipping through them rapidly, stopping at about six in and moving to something else, clearly not interested. And one was a photographer(lawyer), which probably says much....
We are that way though, flip,flip,flippant.....
We sat about some and Ken, who was a woodworker at 84, but not looking it, a retired industrial arts teacher, who was in the gallery to volunteer as well, got out his hand-crafted dulcimer with the birds carved and all. He was rusty but played two hymns, I got out the harmonica, but my key was wrong and it just sounded bad. Rick beat upon a glass jar. Good jam session.
Well, that wound up being the only sale of the day. In all, I sold four. Two more to Kim, who is our Art League Events person. I could not print hers until an afternoon of trying again to make the Kodak 3250 work, cleaning the heads again. Melanie said she needed something printed and so I went online and ordered from Wal-Mart for 59.00 an Epson 301. I got to Walmart to pick it up and they had none. The website let me order. I was aggravated. I went to Office Max and they did not have the 301 but the next step up for 79.00. Finally got it set up about dark something and printed out the two for Kim and some others to experiment with the printer.
I still want to get a pro quality printer for around 400.00 but again, on a budget and have to skimp.
Birthday wishes on Facebook were steady. I tried to respond to everyone.
Posted several photographs and still I am getting no responses or shares like the one Suzanne posted on my sight and all the comments. I like comments more than likes, for perhaps sometime in life someone will say something useful beside beautiful or wow or nice.
It was also interesting to see a few folks looking at the photographs I had in the gallery, flipping through them rapidly, stopping at about six in and moving to something else, clearly not interested. And one was a photographer(lawyer), which probably says much....
We are that way though, flip,flip,flippant.....
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Printer Profanity
All I wanted to do was print one print. I had matted and sleeved 24 and I was going to print just one. I had purchased the new ink. I installed the new ink in the Kodak all-in-one 3250. I turned on the Print and out came a blank page. Over and over I tried everything. Cursing as each came out blank. Took out the print head and cleaned it was rubbing alcohol and q-tips. Nothing. Emailed trouble shoot to Kodak. 24-48 to reply. New head another 40.00. So the day has been squandered trying to print just one print. I have 50 five by sevens I wanted to print, mostly butterflies, but that will have to go onto hold.
Saw in the interim that Kim, Melanie's sister was going through my SmugMug photographs, asking Devan if she liked a purple photograph I had from April 2012. Nice to know she did not care to contact me. Maybe she will. Probably though just order through SmugMug. I used to have it set up so I could make some money off of prints, but it was costing me 250.00 a year and no one was ordering. Again, a loss. So when I suspend it, what do you know, orders. I could just go into a fit but I will try and suppress the frustration. Enough of that in other areas. Hard times come again no more playing on Pandora. Fitting.
Saw in the interim that Kim, Melanie's sister was going through my SmugMug photographs, asking Devan if she liked a purple photograph I had from April 2012. Nice to know she did not care to contact me. Maybe she will. Probably though just order through SmugMug. I used to have it set up so I could make some money off of prints, but it was costing me 250.00 a year and no one was ordering. Again, a loss. So when I suspend it, what do you know, orders. I could just go into a fit but I will try and suppress the frustration. Enough of that in other areas. Hard times come again no more playing on Pandora. Fitting.
Lime Time
At the age of three, far from me, are you still remembering me, attempting to get a message to me?
Know at fifty-nine, I am trying, not to forget the time, when we would write with the color lime.
Tomorrow my grand-son, I will have another birthday, and it seems, for me, time is slipping
further along, far from your ability to catch up with me
I have tried all I can do to slow the pace, to stay back in the pack, allowing the fleet to take
the prize, knowing greater rewards, I was told, was not to the fast, but the slow.
But no longer do I know, I am weary with the running, the writing, the trying. I could deciper the
scribbling once in time, I knew why the lime was the color, without words we did much speaking,
but now, now, I am just keeping these things within, for it seems such a grim mockery,
to have you taken from me
And someday they say, you shall again come my way. I shall have the lime cut and look forward
to again seeing you pucker, recalling the time, you liked the lime.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Four Bison
It was exactly a year ago that this photograph was taken. It was on Jeffrey Hill's property by his sawmill. I had the privilege of monthly reading the demand meter at the sawmill. There was an old tusked pig that would walk up and inspect me. There were ostriches and the buffalo that kept their distance.
It is the opportunity I had to get into the out of the way and private places that I miss about the meter reading job I had in 2012-13.
It is the opportunity I had to get into the out of the way and private places that I miss about the meter reading job I had in 2012-13.
Hello Blogin'
Well, well. Outdoors it is a raining and the temperature is dropping from the 60's it began the day with. Sister was here early, like 9 to get mama and take her back to her house for the physical therapy visit and later her bath. She messaged that it went well. They fight like the Bunkers over there so the news was good, other than sister coming in blubbering and crying over a little dog who she had tried to catch was on the road dead today. Melanie said it is the nurse in her. I said, crazy.
Melanie had a crown attaching appointment in Gainesville at 10:30 so I drove her down and waited the hour in the car. About an hour later she woke me and we drove straight back after a stop at the Dollar General in Ellisville for some litter and drinks. She got in just in time for her conference call. I went to the laundry room and kitchen. Woman's work slowly done by a man.
Posted the usual suspects on Facebook, mostly folks not getting the Funny, or maybe they do, they just ain't gonna dare tell me. So far I am outpacing Susan on her post on my wall of her red sunset. I gave up trying so I am joining and wowing hers, maybe some of the silent ones will get a hint, but they won't.
Its back to the arcane and quoted shares from everywhere.
There is a slow process going on with me. I was to be at the Galley today from 1-5 but I switched with Ginney so she could be with her son in surgery Thursday 10-2. I am trying to gather the butterfly shots on the computer and put them in one album. I go through an album, of which there are many, and I see a photo I like that is non-butterfly and I will post it or use it as my profile or something. I have four places to send them so it is a slow process going through and searching out the decent butterfly shots.
Thus, the posted shot is one I came across from last year meter reading, some little tricycle sitting in the backyard next to the steps, no longer used. It spoke to me. Many of them do. Otherwise, I would not take them. Gee whiz. Hello!
Melanie had a crown attaching appointment in Gainesville at 10:30 so I drove her down and waited the hour in the car. About an hour later she woke me and we drove straight back after a stop at the Dollar General in Ellisville for some litter and drinks. She got in just in time for her conference call. I went to the laundry room and kitchen. Woman's work slowly done by a man.
Posted the usual suspects on Facebook, mostly folks not getting the Funny, or maybe they do, they just ain't gonna dare tell me. So far I am outpacing Susan on her post on my wall of her red sunset. I gave up trying so I am joining and wowing hers, maybe some of the silent ones will get a hint, but they won't.
Its back to the arcane and quoted shares from everywhere.
There is a slow process going on with me. I was to be at the Galley today from 1-5 but I switched with Ginney so she could be with her son in surgery Thursday 10-2. I am trying to gather the butterfly shots on the computer and put them in one album. I go through an album, of which there are many, and I see a photo I like that is non-butterfly and I will post it or use it as my profile or something. I have four places to send them so it is a slow process going through and searching out the decent butterfly shots.
Thus, the posted shot is one I came across from last year meter reading, some little tricycle sitting in the backyard next to the steps, no longer used. It spoke to me. Many of them do. Otherwise, I would not take them. Gee whiz. Hello!
Monday, January 27, 2014
The Deal is Rotten
As Leonard says, everybody knows...
that's how it goes.
Today i picked up Pearce from Allison's and took him to Lake DeSoto to train for the upcoming February Olustee Blue-Gray Runnin' Reb fun run. He placed third in his age group last year, and wants to improve upon that. We started out with him distancing me as I jogged along, having to stop after two minutes in and walk. oh the day, the day, i could clip out six minute after six minute mile up to marathon distance. I had his gatorade and the camera's in tow, weighing me down was my excuse. We ran one good lap and played around for two, walking and doing his challenges that all seven year kids like to do.
It was painful again in that I was being a somewhat grandpa for a day. Everything with kids pains me.
Rue the day Landon got himself into this mess.
that's how it goes.
today facebook notified me they approved changing the name of John Stokes Photography to John Stokes Journey. A one time change. I was getting weary of not even getting one hundred views, much, much less likes, hardly ever any comments. by taking photography off the page, I figured I could just post and gab about a journey and take the onus off people thinking me a photographer. They can now say, gosh, you should be a photographer if they think the photography decent, but they never do.
that's how it goes.
There was talk of me being depressed. I suppose so. Comes with the melancholy nature I have. I thrive it seems under a morose, languishing state of mind. If all was hunky dory and rose colored, I don't think I would be too content. I would look for reasons to return to the inward wrangling.
that's how it goes.
Saw an old bike rider lugging his bike up 41 today. I turned and waited for him. I knew it would be an interesting photograph. As he passed me and he saw me clicking, I called out something. We talked awhile and he was heading to Lakeland he said, from Tennessee. Lake City was misread on the map. What a rig. He spoke of sleeping where ever he wound up. He seemed not a homeless type or down on his luck. I gave him some money anyway, said supper was on me tonight.
that's how it goes.
By that time the sunset was getting good. I had been waiting for it as well on the dock at the Lake. As the sun went off the lake, I hurried out to Old Country Club road. A few more shots. Again, lately manipulating like crazy the settings trying to get the look I am after. Win a few, lose more.
Yesterday at the Watertown Lake was simply awesome and a wonderment. After talking with a Mr Chandler who seemed to have keen insight into birds and creatures, the sun set with these fingers and fire like strands. I know, Steve would say they were Geo-engineered and ugly. I shot til it was dark. I shot til it was dark today.
That's how it goes. Everybody knows. And ole man cotton got a rotten deal.
that's how it goes.
Today i picked up Pearce from Allison's and took him to Lake DeSoto to train for the upcoming February Olustee Blue-Gray Runnin' Reb fun run. He placed third in his age group last year, and wants to improve upon that. We started out with him distancing me as I jogged along, having to stop after two minutes in and walk. oh the day, the day, i could clip out six minute after six minute mile up to marathon distance. I had his gatorade and the camera's in tow, weighing me down was my excuse. We ran one good lap and played around for two, walking and doing his challenges that all seven year kids like to do.
It was painful again in that I was being a somewhat grandpa for a day. Everything with kids pains me.
Rue the day Landon got himself into this mess.
that's how it goes.
today facebook notified me they approved changing the name of John Stokes Photography to John Stokes Journey. A one time change. I was getting weary of not even getting one hundred views, much, much less likes, hardly ever any comments. by taking photography off the page, I figured I could just post and gab about a journey and take the onus off people thinking me a photographer. They can now say, gosh, you should be a photographer if they think the photography decent, but they never do.
that's how it goes.
There was talk of me being depressed. I suppose so. Comes with the melancholy nature I have. I thrive it seems under a morose, languishing state of mind. If all was hunky dory and rose colored, I don't think I would be too content. I would look for reasons to return to the inward wrangling.
that's how it goes.
Saw an old bike rider lugging his bike up 41 today. I turned and waited for him. I knew it would be an interesting photograph. As he passed me and he saw me clicking, I called out something. We talked awhile and he was heading to Lakeland he said, from Tennessee. Lake City was misread on the map. What a rig. He spoke of sleeping where ever he wound up. He seemed not a homeless type or down on his luck. I gave him some money anyway, said supper was on me tonight.
that's how it goes.
By that time the sunset was getting good. I had been waiting for it as well on the dock at the Lake. As the sun went off the lake, I hurried out to Old Country Club road. A few more shots. Again, lately manipulating like crazy the settings trying to get the look I am after. Win a few, lose more.
Yesterday at the Watertown Lake was simply awesome and a wonderment. After talking with a Mr Chandler who seemed to have keen insight into birds and creatures, the sun set with these fingers and fire like strands. I know, Steve would say they were Geo-engineered and ugly. I shot til it was dark. I shot til it was dark today.
That's how it goes. Everybody knows. And ole man cotton got a rotten deal.
Sunday, January 26, 2014
in search of frontage
| exit the witnesses |
| we cling tenuously |
| they serve communion every Sunday |
| sounds promising |
| It's Lantern must of been in a park |
| before the exit of the witnesses |
| origins, Williston United Methodist |
| a sign without a message |
| a swine and some pearls |
We attended and were welcomed with open arms. We loved the people, but it was the doctrine that did me in. I had of late been talking with Rev Richard Harding of Faith Baptist Tabernacle in Williston where Melanie went to school. He opened my eyes to some of the fallacies of the dispensational doctrine widely held in most Baptist churches. Rev Peterson I soon found was a staunch Dispensationalist, holding the teachings of Cyrus Scofield and his bible. That is when the trouble began when I started sending the deacons brochures against the doctrine. It came to the point where Brother Peterson said from the pulpit there was a person in the church, he would not expose, the poison man, that was spreading false doctrine. If he did not stop, he would expose him before the church. Instead of allowing a confrontation, we quietly stopped attending. It was a sad day for the people to this day we still love dearly. On hindsight, I suppose I could have put up with the doctrine, but I had recently drawn much heat over a letter to the editor against Mormons, with Mormons calling for my job, causing a storm of letters to the editor, so I was not, in my youthful exuberance, one to back down.
We trod soon there after to the Southside where mostly the over seventy presided, mostly kindly ladies not too intent on giving up their seats to the young Lanterns. We attended the young married couples Sunday School and enjoyed it. We even liked the red-headed song leader for his wife worked at JCPenney and played the organ wonderfully. I just do not recall why we left other than Rev Brown and Keith left and I suppose we did too soon after.
I was born into a United Methodist ministers home in Vicco, Kentucky in 1955. We soon moved to Sopchoppy, Florida that same year and I remained a Methodist this entire time up until I met Melanie and we married in 1988 at the Whitehurst Memorial United Methodist Chapel on January 8th by my late father, the Rev. Luther Ray Stokes.
We became Baptists since that was the faith Melanie grew up with and at the time, i was quite dis-allusion ed with the liberal Methodist politics and their Armenian theology.
We stayed with Southside all the while looking about. Still leaning Wesleyan, we landed at the First Nazarene church run by the Vann family, their son marrying the Pastors daughter. We enjoyed the small congregation and the times at the Vann's after services until the daughter decided she had had enough and left the Vann man for another man. It pretty much did the church in and it hasn't been a Nazarene church since all this, with the Pastor moving on.
We again went out in search, spending time at the Christian Heritage under the then living Wayne Hancock, another unfortunate excellent pastor whose wife left him for another man, then over to Ramona Park for a time, mostly to their sings, the women at the time all wore doilies upon their heads, there was no one pastor but a group of elders who ministered. The most humble and loving people we have ever had the privilege of knowing. When Melanie was sick in 2009 with H1N1 and we were on the bottom financially and every other way, these great believers came through for us.
For a time we thought perhaps we should support the church nearest the house, that being Hopeful Baptist three miles up the Price Creek Frontage Road. We enjoyed the friends we knew there, having migrated like us there from various other baptist churches. But, the dispensationalism crept into every sermon, along with the accept Jesus theology and we just did not want to undertake another letter writing campaign. We quietly bowed out again.
For a brief time, over to First Christian on the US90 downtown frontage, next to the buffet for first dibs after services. They partook of communion every Sunday and somehow, after the Pastor was later caught down at the lake with some other fellows, well...we cast no stones, but we kind of left quietly again.
Parkview Baptist for a few Sundays, the mother church of Westside. Great cantata's but just a bit too big.
Wesley Methodist. I liked Wesley back before I was married, especially if you want to really know the truth, Carl Brooks daughters. We had a great time on the church softball team, even had Randy Mackey before he became a politician and forgot us. Tom Harkelford, the fellow who drove the little Porsche with his scarlet fever and road rage fits if you pulled up behind him, meekly served coffee before services, totally masking the rage upon the highway. When we attended as a couple, I do think it was either a magician or a motorcyclist pastor, but either way, we just didn't click like I did will Carl and the girls.
Once or twice over to First Methodist, that proud First church upon the frontage of Marion, home of many, many friends from the two years my father was there, before being run out after two years by the staunch pillars who just could not savor his penchant for Goodwill clothing and Fanny Crosby, eschewing the vestal robes and fighting tooth and toenail with the choice of music. It was just more than he could handle. It drove him to retire from the ministry and go into evangelism to small churches.
We had all but given up on the prospect of finding a place when upon passing each week on US90, we said, let's try Westside next Sunday.
The church on the US90 frontage road, the mission church of Parkview Baptist, then called Westside Baptist, then Grace Covenant and sundry other names, formed not out of schism or protest, so we visited one Sunday with Elmer Crews the pastor, whom we loved and love dearly with his wife. We felt this a good fit for our then young two sons. We got involved in Sunday School and Awana, which we helped in at Lantern Park. The choir was talented with great special music. Elmer and the elders seemed on the same page, off the same page, and one Sunday he blind-sided the congregation at a time they were off the same page. He was immediately resigning and taking the Pastorate of Wellborn Baptist, a nice, new pink brick structure on the same frontage road. A gasp went up. We tried Wellborn once or twice, but no matter, we felt we were betraying by slipping over.
After many in the church followed Elmer, the remnant formed a Pastor search committee and somehow wound up in the panhandle listening to one Russell Taylor, of whom Dwayne and Patti knew. After the trial sermon it was agreed to call him. And so that day as I was about a month or two from getting canned at JCPenney after 19 years, Christina his wife came in looking for a sport coat for her husband and his first Sunday. It was my last coat sale.
So, with no job but a new pastor, the church carried on, minus many but adding others. At some time in the growing, we merged with the Liberty Baptist Church with their Pastor Milton Smith. With co-pastors, I could sleep every other Sunday for Milton was quite above my head. We grew to the point a well-known church architect and planner was called on, one of our artist ladies drew a grand rendition of this new cathedral and so most voted to sell the frontage property and move, building the first of three phases structure, a nice sanctuary with fellowship hall.
And then amid the moving plans, one of the saddest things ever happened. The wonderful song leader and extremely humble and talented musician, Dan Clark drown in the Gulf, his wife almost drowning trying to rescue him. It was total devastation. It was one of those, how could we ever go on without Dan. I still grieve that. Fortunately his daughter Lani and son Tim took over the reigns of worship.
Despite that, the plans to move continued unabated. I knew from past experience if we were outgrowing the building now, just wait, like most Baptists, it would not be long before a group would up and leave.
Kind of like having children. We think we need to build a huge house so all can have a room, regretting it in later years when the kids leave.
But, on deaf ears. It would be a grand move. We would grow and grow.
When all the men met in the fellowship hall to put it to a final vote, all the men were required to speak a yea or a nay for moving and why. Of the two nays, I was one. Again, what did I or Tom know?
And so more men became embittered and moved on, leaving even less to carry on. But with the money from the sale of the property and buildings, the new first phase was begun down the road a piece, off the valuable frontage road.
In the meantime, Milton had resigned under scandal and this took a few more with him. He later left his wife, breaking the trend of wives leaving the pastor husbands.
With the new building completed, a youth pastor was bought in after going down to Brooksville to see first hand the funnel program. John came and things went well with a growing youth group. It was about into year two that a group came to visit from Providence Baptist. And then for some reason, after the painful falling out with the home church people, one after another standing up and announcing their loss of confidence, it was the plan to start an eldership training class.
Candidates were put forward and a group was formed, meeting weekly. This went on for awhile and eventually it came to the point it was clear some of the elders in training were progressing faster than others. Elders were assigned to a group of members, each one having a certain number of people they looked over and prayed for, etc. When a survey was put forth to the church to grade the elders, a move we felt unfair, since we did not feel we had the knowledge to grade any elder other than our own, many came away with bad grades and strange things said about them. It all got out of hand quickly and came to a boiling point at a meeting where the elders who got the bad reports felt things were handled improperly, which they were. It all should never have gotten to this point. More humility should have been shown. When one receives a bad grade, it is prudent to consider it to have some truth and not bristle, but go to the knees in contrition. Not so.
In the fire that ensued, accusing Russell of this and that, accusing Vicky the secretary of this and that, Russell resigning. Cleveland the youth pastor already left. And so, with only two elders, Gary and Brandon being recommended as elders, Brandon became the minister, Gary left to join with Russell and the church changed the name from Grace to Grace Life and went under the leadership of the umbrella church out in Muscle Shoals, Alabama. The radio station Gary worked so tirelessly to obtain finally received a license and went on the air.
And so, thinking Russell to be moving away to the panhandle, at the urging of some members not pleased with the results of all that transpired, asked if he would remain. He thus stayed and began a church called Christ's Fellowship, affiliated with the Beulah Southern Baptist Association, meeting in the green spray foamed garage at his home off County Line Road, about a mile from the frontage road. This small group had a good first service, but never grew. They finally moved out of the dank garage and to the new Columbia County Community Center off Birley Road. It was not the first choice, as the fellow who owned the empty Missionary Baptist Church down on the frontage road, out from Wellborn would not sell or rent. Talk about frontage waste(along with old Westside Baptist). Anyhow, we soon left Grace and went with Russell, troubled with the elder situation. I told Melanie, it was just a matter of time. So sure enough, recently, a matter of time arrived, Russell publicly announced plans to sell the house, move to Navarre and start a church plant.
Today, donations were requested on Facebook for the plant. Melanie and I said, once this phase is over, we are all but done.
We ponder sending our tithes to Mike and Libby Wild in Indonesia, working with the Wano tribe translating the Bible into their language. Landon went to stay a month with them several years ago. We have grown to love them and their boys. We may send Jordon over, or go ourselves. We may never join another church. I could get used to wearing a hand-painted gourd!
Yet, despite it all, I am again leaning toward returning to some sort of connectional congregation where the pastor is not at the whim of deacons, a search committee, a vote or a pastors own ambitions. One who is appointed and if he moves on, another will come along in his place. I'd just as soon sit under a lady pastor with a doily on my head at this point than sit wondering when the split or resignation will take place.
But I doubt Melanie will go along. She just doesn't savor the standing up and down, reading responsively, saying apostle creeds, robes, organs and stained-glass. Too much austere Baptist in her.
Too much Methodist left in me. She wants to sell all and move away. Oh those Baptists!
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Its a slow fade
I was in a beside myself state of mind today over trying to print some 5x7's for the Gallery Gift Shop, to try and boost lagging sales. The printer as I related earlier just wouldn't print beyond magenta. From lack of using the printer often, the ink had dried I assumed, or something glitchey.
Got into the PT Cruiser and headed for Office Max, not really wanting to. Got the ink and a new pair of head phones for around 40.oo. Started home but decided instead to visit Robert Jones, whom I hadn't seen in months.
I was taken somewhat aback when he came to the door of the double wide, where at 90, he still lives alone, his nephew Tommy living next door keeping an eye on him.
He was skinnier than I even recall him in the hey day of his running career thirty years ago. Too, his memory was ever more fuzzy than last time. Fortunately he still knew me, even though he had forgotten so many I mentioned. He did not even know his own nephew's wife Glenda Sanders whom he has gone to eat beans with forever on Thursdays. He had to look on a pad to see how old he was.
We sat and talked small talk as he faded in and out, bringing to memory the past growing dim. Not remembering Rick Bringger, I thought perhaps we could drive over to Firehouse Subs and maybe he would be there. We arrived and Rick wasn't. I ordered and Bob just stood there, unable to make up his mind. I finally said, give him what I am having. We ate the steak and cheese subs medium all the way combo in relative silence. I told him it was like the old days when I was always first to finish, waiting on him.
We drove back to his place stacked high with things he has ordered over the years and searched for some old slides I would duplicate for him. He forgot what we were looking for. I did not push it. We sorted through some old running club days photos and I said, that is ok, if you find them, fine. I knew he wouldn't. I knew when he closed the side bedroom door, he would not even remember why he was in the room
I promised him I would try and come see him at least once a week. He said he liked to go out for breakfast around 9 or 10. So do I. I will try and live up to my word and visit Bob again.
Got into the PT Cruiser and headed for Office Max, not really wanting to. Got the ink and a new pair of head phones for around 40.oo. Started home but decided instead to visit Robert Jones, whom I hadn't seen in months.
I was taken somewhat aback when he came to the door of the double wide, where at 90, he still lives alone, his nephew Tommy living next door keeping an eye on him.
He was skinnier than I even recall him in the hey day of his running career thirty years ago. Too, his memory was ever more fuzzy than last time. Fortunately he still knew me, even though he had forgotten so many I mentioned. He did not even know his own nephew's wife Glenda Sanders whom he has gone to eat beans with forever on Thursdays. He had to look on a pad to see how old he was.
We sat and talked small talk as he faded in and out, bringing to memory the past growing dim. Not remembering Rick Bringger, I thought perhaps we could drive over to Firehouse Subs and maybe he would be there. We arrived and Rick wasn't. I ordered and Bob just stood there, unable to make up his mind. I finally said, give him what I am having. We ate the steak and cheese subs medium all the way combo in relative silence. I told him it was like the old days when I was always first to finish, waiting on him.
We drove back to his place stacked high with things he has ordered over the years and searched for some old slides I would duplicate for him. He forgot what we were looking for. I did not push it. We sorted through some old running club days photos and I said, that is ok, if you find them, fine. I knew he wouldn't. I knew when he closed the side bedroom door, he would not even remember why he was in the room
I promised him I would try and come see him at least once a week. He said he liked to go out for breakfast around 9 or 10. So do I. I will try and live up to my word and visit Bob again.
Beyond Comprehension
There is a frustration beyond comprehension. Yes, the damn sky is falling. Falling upon me. Of sitting here the last hour simply wanting to print 5x7's. The ink comes out all magenta. Unacceptable. I recalibrate, I clean the heads. Still it persists. I know what it is. These Kodak printers brag that the ink is cheap, which it isn't. If you do not do all your printing while the cartridge is new, if you let it set up awhile between print sessions, it dries out or goes magenta on you. The solution, to Kodak favor is to trudge down to OfficeMax for another cartridge costing nearly 40 bucks.
It is so much more convenient to print at home, rather than going through the tedious steps of saving them to an online printer, paying for them, picking them up or having them mailed. I want them by Tuesday, not next week. Oh I never knew I still had turrets disease until today.
The temperature is nearly 60 at 12:45 finally. It remains overcast. I need some sunshine and a destiny.
I need to get away for awhile from this Kodak magenta printer. Guess a trip to OMax is coming.
It begs a further frustration. Of having to deal with and live with inferior equipment. Of not being able to afford better tools. Camera, lens, paper,printer,frames,mats,the entire process. All bought at a bargain and cheaply as possible. Trying to save a dollar to make a dollar. Not accomplishing either.
Re-setting the D3100 last night, taking it off the Vivid setting to a neutral setting with a minus one in contrast. Setting the Auto focus and other stuff. Trying to learn the camera. One thing that frustrates is the focus hunting. Got to figure out to get instant shooting, I suppose that would be total manual over-ride, which lately I have been reverting to. It begs the question, why do I need a top of the line do it all for me camera when it doesn't do what I want it to do?
One day before I leave earth, I would hope to find myself sitting in a new kayak with the fancy camera and long lens, all the light gear necessary to take me from Fargo to Suwannee, sending the photographs via satellite to the laptop carried along, with the latest in technology and storage, pulling ashore then putting in on the Appalachian trail with the lightest gear on my back and winding up three months later upon Springer Mountain in Maine.
It is so much more convenient to print at home, rather than going through the tedious steps of saving them to an online printer, paying for them, picking them up or having them mailed. I want them by Tuesday, not next week. Oh I never knew I still had turrets disease until today.
The temperature is nearly 60 at 12:45 finally. It remains overcast. I need some sunshine and a destiny.
I need to get away for awhile from this Kodak magenta printer. Guess a trip to OMax is coming.
It begs a further frustration. Of having to deal with and live with inferior equipment. Of not being able to afford better tools. Camera, lens, paper,printer,frames,mats,the entire process. All bought at a bargain and cheaply as possible. Trying to save a dollar to make a dollar. Not accomplishing either.
Re-setting the D3100 last night, taking it off the Vivid setting to a neutral setting with a minus one in contrast. Setting the Auto focus and other stuff. Trying to learn the camera. One thing that frustrates is the focus hunting. Got to figure out to get instant shooting, I suppose that would be total manual over-ride, which lately I have been reverting to. It begs the question, why do I need a top of the line do it all for me camera when it doesn't do what I want it to do?
One day before I leave earth, I would hope to find myself sitting in a new kayak with the fancy camera and long lens, all the light gear necessary to take me from Fargo to Suwannee, sending the photographs via satellite to the laptop carried along, with the latest in technology and storage, pulling ashore then putting in on the Appalachian trail with the lightest gear on my back and winding up three months later upon Springer Mountain in Maine.
Friday, January 24, 2014
Jim Witt Way
Returned home from the trip to Ocean Pond and Olustee, ate left overs. Saw that the sky was doing interesting things so hopped back in the car and headed south, this time to the large oak in the field at Old Country Club Road. Few shots there, then down Old CC to stop at the high hill field. Few shots there. Then on to 41 South and turning at Arky Rogers onto Jim Witt Road. Noticed the old red building that was once leaning is now a rubble. I have photographs to remember it. Stopped by the nice barn in front of the pond and shot a few. That was about it. The unnatural sky set and I made it home for the usual Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy.
Struggling of late with the metering on the camera, no matter what I do, the exposure being about the same. I like to underexpose and I have really had to manipulate settings lately more than wanted. Ended up for the most part with spot metering and manual. I have tried A and S priority, having to crank down the exposure compensation to almost minus two at times. I must have auto ISO or something wrong.
Always learning, never able to come to the knowledge of the truth they say.
The top shot has been worked in Picassa with the HDR. The second untouched.
Struggling of late with the metering on the camera, no matter what I do, the exposure being about the same. I like to underexpose and I have really had to manipulate settings lately more than wanted. Ended up for the most part with spot metering and manual. I have tried A and S priority, having to crank down the exposure compensation to almost minus two at times. I must have auto ISO or something wrong.
Always learning, never able to come to the knowledge of the truth they say.
The top shot has been worked in Picassa with the HDR. The second untouched.
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