Love Your Suit

One of my favorite movies. The Silence of the Lambs. Anthony Hopkins made an excellent Hannibal Lecter. This is from the scene where he is about to be transported to Memphis and as the Senator turns, he says to her, Love your suit...

You Called?

The photograph was taken last week at Alligator Lake. When I park next to the Halpatter statue, I usually take off on foot first through this wonderful meadow of mature Live Oaks. One time, two deer walked into the frame under the arching beams. This day, it was as if on cue, the beams appeared, and God was responding to my early morning cry.
For yes, we do not usually walk about in a blank manner. Not only am I focused as much as humanly possible upon the scenery, but also, deeply focused within, in prayer and meditation. It is my large closet to which I often flee. Only this closet is full of wonderful light and scenes surrounding, not musty clothing.

Thy Will be done

Mizpah for September 22nd

Thy Will be done. Matthew 6:10

Father adored! Thy holy will be done,
Low at Thy feet I lie;
Thy loving chastisement I would not shun,
Nor from Thy anger fly.
My heart is weak, but weaned from all beside,
And to Thy will resigned whate'er betide.

Madame Guyon


The Mizpah for today is a photograph of my fathers home place from the far Western corner of the property. This was the side that my father several years ago said would be mine, with the house and middle my sisters, and the side nearest Williston, my brothers.
With the signing of the foreclosure certified letter on Monday, the Nutter Company wanting the full amount for the property, over $250 thousand, it will not be too long before all this is a "foregone" conclusion.
Thus, the poem by Madame Guyon I felt fit right in with the photograph, a low angle of the beauty berries, as low in somberness I stooped to take it. And I question, am I truly resigned and weaned from all else beside the will of God? That is the difficult thing to determine for at times I continue to harbor such strong resentment, and at others, a detached, let it go, let it go attitude.
Thy will be done.

The Master Calls

The Master is come, and calleth for thee. John 11:28.

"I believe that it is when we are most occupied with Christ that we are most useful to others, however conscious we may then be (as of course we shall be more than ever) of our unlikeness to Him. Adelaide Newton.

He is faithful

Mizpah for September 16,2011. The Lord is faithful. 2 Thess. 3:3. "Never be discouraged because good things get on so slowly here; and never fail daily to do that good which lies next to your hand. Do not be in a hurry, but be diligent. Enter into the sublime patience of the Lord." G.MacDonald.

I chose this photograph, taken by evening light at Shands, Melanie ministering to Jordon, to illustrate the quote and  how our family, since 2009, has acutely lived in the sublime patience of the Lord. First my stent and pacemaker in August, Melanie and her H1N1 and ARDS in October, Jordon's collapsed appendix and collapsed lung, the death of my father and on, the loss of our business, the late loss of the job at Sears, we attempt with grace not to grow in discouragement, as yes, it seems ever so slow in coming, the good.
But, when we look upon these trying times, were not they the good? For in them, unlike in the times of wellness, we have clung to the Presence of the Lord in a way we never would have. In that, in the seeking of His face, our diligence has been great gain.

to sea

to sea

by john clare

too scared to die
too ashamed to tell
in the ocean swell
with the high tide
launched the skiff
in the Intercoastal way
old Skippers say
the waves did lift
for you see
under dirt below
where no skiffs go
far from sea
is a horror far grand
for scared sailors
in Boston Whalers
stranded upon
the dry docked ground.

Mizpah for Sept 14

And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Psalm 23:6
The "house of the Lord" is the only home of all pure and holy beings. It is the safe and happy home of angels. It is the everlasting home of the whole family of the redeemed." Stevenson.

This verse has been driven 'home' to me time and again, each time we journey down to Williston to gather the remains of my fathers late estate.
Years earlier, in 2000, after he sold what we considered our home place in Crawfordville, to move to Williston, we went through this same process. Only this time, after losing the property and home due to a reverse mortgage, we no longer have what we call a home place where everyone can gather at Thanksgiving and other occasions, which we often did over the years.

There is some comfort in knowing that we have an eternal home awaiting, a reunion of grand scale, yet still the sadness we experience upon this earth continues, and will, until that day.

One flew over

In the last trip down to Williston, I drove into the back yard, into the tall, unmown grass. I was there to get another load of my fathers belongings, and carry them back to Lake City. The pasture was void of the two dozen or so cows Mr Cross had kept there since April.
The power had been turned off to the property last week, and thus there was no water for them.
All was quiet and somber. Then, along the back fence row, six turkeys were spotted slowly making their way from under the tall oaks.
As on cue I stopped my loading and got the camera from the front seat. I walked deliberately toward them, knowing they had already seen me. I was able to get this shot as the first turkey took wing over the fence. The rest soon followed with the last one, not wanting to fly, frantically pacing up and down the fence before flying over.
And then they were gone. And I resumed the loading of a past also gone.

The Red Bell

The restored bell from my fathers place.

Father's Bell

Raise the Old Bell

Several weeks ago Carmello and I dug up the old bell that stood at my father's place in Williston. It was no easy task. The cast iron bell rested atop a railroad cross tie buried several feet in the ground. After much tugging, we got the pole from the ground and loaded it and the bell on the trailer. In Lake City, I sprayed bleach on the bell to kill the algae that had accumulated and let it sit.
Yesterday, in searching for some red paint, I came across an old can of red paint my father had in one of his foot lockers. It had to be from the early 60's, about half full but clogged beyond spraying. I punched a hole in the top and the red spewed out...
I then took an equally old brush from the foot locker and began painting the old bell. It was an ardous task to move the large cross tie from the front yard, but I finally managed, by lifting it and letting it fall, over and over, until it fell by the hole I had dug with my fathers old post hole diggers. I then searched all over for three bolts large enough to screw into the bell holder. You would have thought, with all the many
screws and nails I had carried from Williston, three would have been easily found. After much searching, three the right size were located and screwed in with my father's large crescent wrench. All was ready for the bell raising. Before that though, I used some old axle grease to lubricated the bell holder notches. I got my dad's old Werner ladder and climbed slowly with the heavy bell.
It slipped into the notches and rested with a clang.
The final touch was to paint the large square nut my dad used at the end of the pull rope.
It now rests in my back yard in the shade. Underneath is the metal outdoor chair, the type my father and his father liked to sit in.
I shall ring in the day, or whatever event merits ringing in now. I am sure my father would be pleased with the raising of the old bell again.

Portals Below

Portals Below by john clare

Nathaniel and I took a stroll
We came to these portals down below
Beckoning to the two
Smiling at us through the blue.
Well, we took a deep breath
And from the world above we left.
First we saw this leopard frog
And then the little talking dog.
He told us we were just in time,
This is the spot for the cloud journey line.
So we stood and along came an Owl,
He said, "Tickets! Tickets! with a scowl.
"That's just grand!"
I said to the little talking canine,
How in this world
Can a ticket be unfurled?
"Silly ones!" he barked, "Old Owl is
just calling for the fat, little ticks!"
Soon the bloody little boogers arrived,
And we embarked on the journey into
the watery skies.
Hooked tightly upon our little cloud
Oh My! We were full of eeews and wows!
We swooshed about through the air
We even dive bombed a cat and
gave him stand up hair!
We rode for what seemed hours and hours
Then we gently set down among some dogwood
flowers.
We thanked Mr Owl for letting us ride the
little clouds.
He only smiled and so politely bowed.
And so we walked about till we found our
portal place
It wasn't long before we pushed up into
the world of haste.
We were only gone but for a blink,
And as we explained our absence,
We gave each other a knowing wink.
Now if you find us one moment on a stroll
down the puddled road
And then all of a sudden you see
a hopping toad,
Wait a wink and n'er fear
We are only visiting the world of
n'er a frown and n'er a tear.